Short, Sweet But Had To Be Said
Ok cool so, my decision to move more into fashion. I feel like I grazed across the real reason and wasnt completely honest which was the whole point of this blog: to be more honest with myself. So, let's try again.
Yes, it's true I've always loved fashion.
Yes, it's true that I started a blog when I was 16.
No, that's not all there is to the story.
Without sounding too dramatic this is throwing it back to emotional Jade. It's 4:30am, I'm listening to Daniel Ceaser and I'm back in my room in London. I'm feeling a weird mixture of deja vu and comfort in the familiarity of my surroundings, so maybe thats why I'm being candid but yeah here we go. So, writing about the sadness, depressive emotions I feel is draining. Writing about it to a schedule is exhausting. Writing about it and people reading it is weird. Writing about it and people telling you they've read it makes you feel exposed. All in all I'm tired. I want to use this not only to confront my emotions but also to escape them. Initially when I started this I had no long term goal in sight. It was meant to be a one off but here we are four months and 2 days later. Surprisingly I'm still writing and even more surprising you're reading. So now I'm in the position where I need to think of a long term plan to see if this a not only a plausible career but one that could realistically provide for the lifestyle that I want (we'll talk about the life I want later). I'm sorry to all of you that liked my depressing posts but after hitting rock bottom the only way is up so onwards and upwards is where I plan on going.
As per usual, wish me luck
J xx
P.S. They'll still be a post later on today at 5pm, have a read...I've got some exciting news!!
Yes, it's true I've always loved fashion.
Yes, it's true that I started a blog when I was 16.
No, that's not all there is to the story.
Without sounding too dramatic this is throwing it back to emotional Jade. It's 4:30am, I'm listening to Daniel Ceaser and I'm back in my room in London. I'm feeling a weird mixture of deja vu and comfort in the familiarity of my surroundings, so maybe thats why I'm being candid but yeah here we go. So, writing about the sadness, depressive emotions I feel is draining. Writing about it to a schedule is exhausting. Writing about it and people reading it is weird. Writing about it and people telling you they've read it makes you feel exposed. All in all I'm tired. I want to use this not only to confront my emotions but also to escape them. Initially when I started this I had no long term goal in sight. It was meant to be a one off but here we are four months and 2 days later. Surprisingly I'm still writing and even more surprising you're reading. So now I'm in the position where I need to think of a long term plan to see if this a not only a plausible career but one that could realistically provide for the lifestyle that I want (we'll talk about the life I want later). I'm sorry to all of you that liked my depressing posts but after hitting rock bottom the only way is up so onwards and upwards is where I plan on going.
As per usual, wish me luck
J xx
P.S. They'll still be a post later on today at 5pm, have a read...I've got some exciting news!!
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