Back To Basics
Recently as part of this "taking blogging seriously" way of thinking I've been writing posts in advance and then scheduling them to post ever Monday and Friday at 8. In theory this is fab, it allows me to be organised and have balance but then it defeats the purpose of why I'm still blogging.
Following a very emotional revelation/ emotional breakdown yesterday, I went into classic Jade isolation mode. It involves lying in my bed sipping hot honey and lemon with the lights off and watching back to back Netflix. In simple terms I ran away from my emotions but staying stationary #inventive, but it all seriousness I feel I was too hard on myself yesterday. I'm blogging to track my journey through adulting, this means every aspect of me growing up not just emotionally. That includes my health and my dress sense because these are all aspects that affect my life. But I was definitely right in saying that I was no longer being authentic on this blog because I stopped living an authentic version of my life.
I love going to fashion shows, art exhibitions, museums and I haven't been to a single one since before uni. I used to bake at least once a month, design and make clothes regularly and read books that didn't have to do with my course. In short I used to explore every aspect of my weird personality but recently I feel like I'm just bleh, I have nothing to talk about apart from uni and this blog; all my interests have been ignored. I've stopped being me, I've even stopped listening to jazz music *gasp*…I know right, am I even Jade without jazz?
Unlike dressing better (which I'm still doing btw), this is actually important and potentially a symptom of a bigger problem so this isn't going to be a quick fix. So, I'm going to it slow. First things first, I'm going back to listening to jazz, I honestly miss it and I'm not sure why I stopped but it's making a comeback in my life. Secondly, I've always wanted to go to an open mic night but I never have, so before the end of the year I'm going to go to one, any suggestions are welcome so feel free to DM me. I might hate open mic nights, I might love them but I'll never know if I don't go. Thirdly, I'm going back to reading a book a month, starting with Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie. I loved reading Half a Yellow Sun and even got to go to the movie premiere in 2013. Even it's 4 years later, it is still one of the most powerful films I've ever seen.
After a whole day alone with my thoughts I can see that yesterday was the result of me not feeling life myself and therefore all the progress I'd made with dealing with my emotions went out the window. So the schedule is also out the window, I'll now post once a day Monday to Friday, maybe even weekends too, because my life doesn't only happen at 8pm twice a week. To be honest I think I'd get more out of this blogging/internet therapy if I go back to basics. So hopefully by returning to being authentically myself, I can jump back on the train to emotional maturity.
Wish me luck.
Following a very emotional revelation/ emotional breakdown yesterday, I went into classic Jade isolation mode. It involves lying in my bed sipping hot honey and lemon with the lights off and watching back to back Netflix. In simple terms I ran away from my emotions but staying stationary #inventive, but it all seriousness I feel I was too hard on myself yesterday. I'm blogging to track my journey through adulting, this means every aspect of me growing up not just emotionally. That includes my health and my dress sense because these are all aspects that affect my life. But I was definitely right in saying that I was no longer being authentic on this blog because I stopped living an authentic version of my life.
I love going to fashion shows, art exhibitions, museums and I haven't been to a single one since before uni. I used to bake at least once a month, design and make clothes regularly and read books that didn't have to do with my course. In short I used to explore every aspect of my weird personality but recently I feel like I'm just bleh, I have nothing to talk about apart from uni and this blog; all my interests have been ignored. I've stopped being me, I've even stopped listening to jazz music *gasp*…I know right, am I even Jade without jazz?
Unlike dressing better (which I'm still doing btw), this is actually important and potentially a symptom of a bigger problem so this isn't going to be a quick fix. So, I'm going to it slow. First things first, I'm going back to listening to jazz, I honestly miss it and I'm not sure why I stopped but it's making a comeback in my life. Secondly, I've always wanted to go to an open mic night but I never have, so before the end of the year I'm going to go to one, any suggestions are welcome so feel free to DM me. I might hate open mic nights, I might love them but I'll never know if I don't go. Thirdly, I'm going back to reading a book a month, starting with Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie. I loved reading Half a Yellow Sun and even got to go to the movie premiere in 2013. Even it's 4 years later, it is still one of the most powerful films I've ever seen.
After a whole day alone with my thoughts I can see that yesterday was the result of me not feeling life myself and therefore all the progress I'd made with dealing with my emotions went out the window. So the schedule is also out the window, I'll now post once a day Monday to Friday, maybe even weekends too, because my life doesn't only happen at 8pm twice a week. To be honest I think I'd get more out of this blogging/internet therapy if I go back to basics. So hopefully by returning to being authentically myself, I can jump back on the train to emotional maturity.
Wish me luck.
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